If you don’t confront the pieces of you that are broken, if you continue to put bandaid after bandaid on your wounds…you will never heal.
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Author: livingbygraceml
Boy mom and a sinner who is in need of God's mercy, grace, and forgiveness every single day!
I Did Not Sign Up for This
I like a routine. I function at my best when I have a schedule of some sort. My house is more in order, the boys know what is coming next, and on the good days I don’t have to argue with my eight year old that it is shower night.
What I didn’t sign up for was having a schedule that is well..completely blown up. I am trying to navigate through e-learning. I enjoy watching the boys and how they learn and study, but there are some things that leave all of us pulling out our hair! A prime example is 3rd grade math where I find myself saying, “I know what the answer is, but I have no idea how or why you have to find it using that way!” I guess I’m old school.
I have given up trying to stick with a bedtime, and why should it matter anyway? I have no clue what day it is. It feels like a long and never ending weekend. A week(end) where we can’t go and do anything. We are limited to our home or taking a walk. Sounds great and sometimes it works, but have you ever tried getting a teenager to take a walk? I end up wanting to go on my own after that conversation.
It may sound like I am complaining, but stick with me here. There are so many people who are without work right now or laid off (my other half being one of them). There are people who are sick and those who have lost their lives. I hope and pray that healing comes quickly, and one day soon things in our world will get back to normal.
In the mean time, this is what I have learned.. it’s ok to not have a routine. There is freedom in not having control over every detail of your life. I have played more board and card games than I have since I was a child. Watching movies, camp ins in the living room, baking cakes (and eating every slice in 24 hours), video games, wrestling matches, and even science projects. If I had my normal routine, I’m not so sure these things would have happened. It has forced us to slow down and enjoy the simple things in life.
There is freedom in not having control over every detail of your life..
So although I didn’t sign up for this, I am incredibly thankful for the memories and blessings that have come from this. After all..
..some of the best memories can come from life’s most difficult challenges.
Messy blessings,
Misty
Faith Over Fear
We are in a time of great uncertainty. The news is filled with new CDC regulations, more cases of Covid-19, increasing number of deaths, and most recently we find out that our children will continue to be out of school until at least May 1st.
I think it would be safe to say that the world is on edge and fearful for what is to come..
It’s easy to go to that place of fear and allow the ‘what ifs’ to race through our minds. Sometimes I find myself in that place. What if I lose my income..What if I can’t feed my family..or..What if I run out of toilet paper and I can’t find any in the stores?
But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
Matthew 6:30 ESV
As believers and followers of Christ, we are to be brave and have no fear because we know that God is with us and is our Provider. However, as humans, we tend to rely on our own understandings and try to control what is happening.
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9 ESV
I suffer from anxiety, and yet during this time of crisis, I find myself having a calm spirit. Instead of focusing on my fears, I’m intentionally focusing on God’s truth. Instead of watching the fear fueled news, or scanning through social media.. I’m diving into scripture and turning to Him.
So during this time of uncertainty, lean into God and His promises.
When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. – Psalms 56:3 ESV
Messy Blessings,
Misty
Living By Grace 