My last post was in March, and there are reasons for that…..those reasons are summed up in these nine pictures. The nine pictures that have shaped 2017, and have caused me to sit here, on New Years Eve, and wonder what changes are before me in 2018.
This past year has brought great loss. The hope of adding to our family was lost on New Years Day 2017; and shortly there after, I lost my father-in-law. This past Summer, our beloved fur baby, Bennett, had to be put down due to his progressive cancer. The hits didn’t stop there…. I also had to end friendships and relationships that had grown toxic. I have had other relationships that have suffered a great deal with trust and uncertainty.
Life lesson of 2017: No matter how flat you make a pancake, there are always two sides. Best to hear both sides before making a decision.
In the midst of all of that, my oldest son suffered a seizure and was diagnosed with epilepsy. We had to adjust to a new medication and a change in sports…. although I think for Noah, giving up football was harder than taking daily medication…(for his momma too!)
Medical bills, vehicle and home repairs have all mounted up. My husband quit his part time job to be home more, and we decided to continue with me staying home. Sure, we have had help from family and friends; and yes, we have heard the gossip about how I need to get a job and shouldn’t be receiving help from others. While I would be lying if I said those comments didn’t hurt, the fact remains that I do have a job….it just doesn’t pay me in cash. We have fallen on hard times, just like everyone else I know has at some point or another.
Life lesson of 2017: It is better to choose love, instead of casting judgement. It’s not your place to judge….period.
Although, the year had many lows, there were some definite positives too! Our family was introduced to a new sport….. SOCCER. Noah played Spring and Fall travel soccer, and LOVED it. It brought joy seeing him fall in love with another sport. Noah also had hist first year at playing basketball, both for his school and a travel league. Nathan played baseball this past Spring, and as it turns out, he’s a little slugger. He also played soccer this Fall. Our family also started a new tradition, and attended our first Indians game on July 4th.
I have also spent more time with my grandma this past year. Her health is declining, and we have experienced some scary moments, but I still get to hear her say I love you and put my arms around her.
I placed a family photo, taken at church on Christmas Eve, in the middle of the collage because it represents so many things.
- I finally made it back to church. I can count on one hand the number of times I went to church this past year.
- It shows my family, that despite what life has thrown at us this past year, we are still standing.
- It shows change…
I can’t predict what changes will continue to come in 2018. I know that all the events of 2017 have molded and shaped me into a different person. I have learned from these experiences and know that some things will just never be the same. I have work to do on myself.
The one thing I will always have is HOPE. I almost let that go this past year. I am incredibly thankful for those who refused to allow me to give up. You have helped me during moments that seemed terribly dark. I thank you for that. Your love and support helped remind me that going forward, I will trust in Him… and rest in His love, mercy, and grace.
Come what may 2018…..
By His grace,