It has been a minute since my last blog post. In part, it is because my family has been busy wrapping up our Summer and getting ready for the new school year. However, most of you that follow know that I try to be as transparent as I can, and I will admit that I have just not had it in me to post.
My baby, has officially started kindergarten.
I’m left asking myself, now what? I have been a full time SAHM for 3 years. My life revolved around taking care of both boys. They would come first before any housework or ‘me’ time. Try as I might, a schedule never worked, I would be on their schedule. I have learned the theme songs to Paw Patrol, Little Einsteins, Mickey Mouse Clubhouse; now know that just playing one game of Candyland is just not allowed, and why just play with one toy when you have a toy room full that somehow makes it out into the living room!!
I have also learned how to calm my little one down when he is really upset. I know the difference in a cry when he is hurt, frustrated, or just seeking attention. I have found that the best nap in the world is taken when you have your children snuggled up next to you, and for a brief moment, the world seems at peace and perfect.
Now, don’t get me wrong, I have enjoyed my time at home with my boys. I felt and still feel that my place is at home, managing the household. The change is coming home after dropping both boys off…to a quiet house. I can now have a schedule that will be easier to stick to; and I can also start finding who I am again. I am volunteering at the boy’s school as the librarian; but that isn’t everyday. I still have this blog and meeting with my girls for Bible study.
So, what is my new norm? I am not sure what my passions really are anymore…what do I want to do….who is Misty? What will my future hold?
This is a new journey, and a new chapter in my life as a wife, mother, and woman. My prayer is that I turn my focus back to Him and follow His lead.