Chapter 6: The First 20

This last pound seemed to take forever, but I finally did it and reached a goal. I have lost twenty pounds!

I think it is time to be even more vulnerable now that I am feeling better about myself and this journey. The one thing I have yet to share is what my goal weight is and how much I need to lose. I will be honest and say that I haven’t shared because I wasn’t so sure this program would work. I have tried so many and I was skeptical. I had seen some amazing results from people I know, but my goal number seemed unreachable. So here it is…

My goal weight is 130 pounds. That will get me in the healthy BMI (body mass index) range for my height. The total weight I needed to lose when I started was the same number..130 pounds. So add those two numbers together and you get..260 pounds. Yes, my starting weight was 260 pounds.

Now, the last 2 weeks I have been pretty tough on myself. Like I said earlier, this last pound seemed to have taken forever to drop. I even thought briefly about throwing in the towel. My fiance was my cheerleader during this time. He told me to stop thinking that way and look at what else is happening. My clothes were fitting much looser. I had just bought a size down in jeans and now probably going to have to buy another size down. He thought it would also be a good idea to start walking now that the weather was nicer, and that is exactly what I did.

I didn’t walk much in the past. My lower back and feet would start to hurt shortly into the walk. I would get out of breath and start to sweat. It wasn’t enjoyable for me and I felt like everyone that drove by was looking at the fat girl who was struggling. This time was much different. My energy was incredible, my back and feet never hurt, I wasn’t winded, and by the end of it, I felt amazing. So the next day, I did it again. I took my dog and walked even further. So far, I have walked every (nice) day.

I realized I had a choice when I stepped on the scale this morning and saw the red number 239. I could choose a negative attitude like, “ugh…I still have 120 pounds to go..this is impossible” or “I did it. I reached my 20 pound goal. I only have 120 pounds to go!” I chose the latter of the two. My mentality is changing with this journey. Although I had some difficult days, I didn’t quit. I persevered and kept moving forward. This journey is a complete lifestyle change for me. Not just in the food I eat, but also my mental and emotional health.

I got this. Nothing is going to hold me back!

Messy blessings,


“So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up.” – Galatians 6:9

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